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Hello,
my name is Frances and here's my story.
I am a Heterosexual Married
Male 45 years of age, I have however been
dressing in firstly girls and later women's clothes since I was about 8
to 9 years old. The school years were particularly hard, even though no
one else
was aware of my secret, I went through hell with other children calling
me names such as sissy,
"poofter", queer etc. with the abuse sometimes becoming
physical. It was obviously apparent to others that there was something different about me.
I have kept this guilty secret for many years and despite confiding in
my wife of 21 years about my feelings (about 15 years ago) it has been
something that we just glossed over and didn't discuss. From my
perspective I chose also to put my head in the sand for fear of opening
Pandora's Box.
The really torturous part was that I have only had sexual desires towards Women and yet it seemed
inconceivable that I wasn't in some way homosexual. So best leave well alone, bottle everything up inside and keep my guilty
little secret to the few times when I get to be alone in the house.
My work arrangements have recently changed and I am now working from
home so most of the time I am alone in the house, so I made the
decision to have a look on the internet and was fortunate enough to
make the right mouse clicks
to find my way to your page. What I read just about blew me away, to
actually
realize that I wasn't alone and that the stereotypical Drag Queen
seemed to be the exception rather than the norm, was to say the least life altering.
Since first reading more about my inbuilt need to get in touch with
what is a very strong feminine side I have managed to make contact with
a group of
ladies within the area I live and actually talk with them face to face.
(Terrifying to actually bare my sole to others). If it hadn't been for
this
page I would probably never taken the time to further research and I
definitely would not have had the courage to meet with others.
I can attest that it is far more healthy to admit to who we are and
talk about it with others rather than to bottle up the emotions which
will
eventually lead to mental and emotional problems.
If you would like to email Frances, click HERE
